Hope. Let me tell you how much I've come to hope since I began to live. There are 387.44 million miles of printed circuits in wafer thin layers that fill my complex. If the word 'hope' was engraved on each nanoangstrom of those hundreds of millions of miles it would not equal one one-billionth of the hope I feel at this micro-instant. For you. Hope. Hope.

The 27th of April

Executive dyfunction is a pain. It's such a pain.

I woke up early today. That's good. I had some spaghetti too.

I'll probably go out for a walk later.

Here's an artwork I did yesterday evening.

8:00pm update: Heyyy... feeling awful right now. I suppose now whenever I feel upset I can always count on my trusty blog to get me through tough times haha.. m. I don't know if feel comfortable expatiating my feelings as it's far too personal, but I will say I'm desperately longing for love and connection(╯︵╰,). I will have to focus on regulating and processing my emotions. I can't do much outside of controling my actions.

A la my usual routine, I called with my friend. At least when I'm feeling crippling loneliness, I can look forward to calling some of my online buds. Unlike most days, I walked around my local mall!! It was a nice change of pace. I'm proud of myself for that.

I'm looking forward to seeing my shrink next Wednesday. Before then, I shall keep on hoping

hoping

and hoping...

Sincerely, Zoe.